Johnny Boy

As Twenty One Pilots once said..

"No one really knows his mind

And no one knows behind his eyes

The man deserves a medal,

But he's never really won a prize

Before.

He goes to lock the door.

He is falling in love.

He knows it's enough.

And the world looks down and frowns.

Get up, Johnny boy, get up, Johnny boy,

Get up 'cause the world has left you lying on the ground.

You're my pride and joy,

You're my pride and joy.

Get up, Johnny boy, because we all need you now.

We all need you now."

No one really knows my mind

And no one knows behind my eyes

I may not deserve a medal,

But I've never really won a prize

I go to lock the door,

Oh,

I go to lock the door.

I've fallen in love

And I thought it'd be enough,

But the world looks down and frowns too much.

Get up, Chloe girl, get up, Chloe girl,

Get up 'cause she left you lying on the ground.

She was my pride and joy,

Oh,

She was my pride and joy,

Get up, Chloe girl, because she was all you needed now.

STOP.

What does it mean to feel needed?

To be loved?

At age 16, I found myself lying on the streets

And my wounds kept opening.

I can't help but think that's where I am again.

I can't help wonder if that's all I'm going to be.

I have this burn on my ring finger that will not go away.

This burning in my heart that will not let me breathe.

The pill bottles

and all the friends messages

and I can't do it.

I don't know how to do it.

STOP.

open up your eyes.

look at this world and realize

it is not your fault

and you may be alone for right now

but it will not be forever.

God did not send you here to fail

He sent you here to live

But what is living,

if there is nothing else to live for?

How do I heal the scars on my heart?

Drive to work every day

like nothing ever happened

All the memories

are just memories.

A blank wall means more than you know.

You sit and you stare

In a bed you're not familiar with.

In a home you're not familiar with.

But how much hurt do you take?

When do you draw the line?

God did not send me here to fail.

He sent me here to live.

And if he sent me here to live,

then I must not let the hurt

the pain

the scars

overcome me. 

Because although they are words,

I am more.